There's a possibility...

...that all I had was all I'm gonna get.

Khoo posted an interesting topic about whether we have to find ourselves or create who we want to be.

I don't think I have any memory of not knowing who I am...till now. Just yesterday I came across my old sketches in my secret book and diary (if one sentence per significant moment is considered 'writing a diary') and realised that I covered up a lot of what I really felt because I didn't want people to see me vulnerable, angry, too excited, embarrassed- any feeling that would make me look weak. After a while, the person I portrayed myself to be, became who I thought I was. Now I'm lost. And if you can't understand why, you're an idiot but thanks for reading anyway. That sounded rude but I didn't mean for it too.

Julie & Julia with the gang. We all loved it. Meryl Streep was perfect in it, as usual. I wanted to cry in almost every husband-wife scene because they were so sweet; but let me emphasise on the WANTED to cry bit. I know most of you know that I can totally cry to movies but I controlled. I am a robot now, thank you. Anyway, to sum up my review in one word, I would describe is as: Delightful.

The Storm Warriors with Philanthropist. I think he hated it. Even more because he wanted to watch Zombieland but I didn't think paying RM7 to watch a comedy about corpses frightening grown adults was worth it. Plus, we both liked The Storm Riders as kids. Okay, back to the part about why he hated it while I just didn't like it much. It was draggy, Phil kept saying "300 copycats" because the colour palette and slowfast battle scenes were similar to the ones in 300, there was lots of unnecessary name calling by annoyingly high pitched girls throughout the movie and I mean throughout, and worst of all, there was romance in the movie. Dammit I hate the pointless addition of romance which I loudly said is to entertain pathetic ah liens because I was that frustrated with it. I enjoy watching romance, don't get me wrong. But those scenes were so inappropriate and unneeded. I don't know how to explain it but some action flicks really don't require "oh I love you" and "be careful!" especially when the girls are squeamish and always make it in time to get hurt so that the heroes have to alter their initial plans to save their lousy asses.

OMG I sound like such a spiteful girl who got crazy rejected by countless guys or something.

ps. Proper updates as soon as Philanthropist uploads them on Facebook which hopefully he will do soon since he's back in the land of the trees and fruits with little distraction (besides the vines hanging from branches that he has been impatiently been waiting to swing from)

Empty handed but alive in your hands

I’m taking Journalism as my degree next year and so far, I seem to be the only one among my college friends who is doing that. I had a little panic attack that there’d only be 7 people in my class which would be absolutely shitty but after checking out the subjects I’ll be taking, I feel more at ease. They seem much better than the other degree courses. Having said that, please do join Journalism! Add to the number of classmates please. And that message goes out to the people who are considering the course: Peanut, Wernie, Mark. I’m counting on the three of you!

I hope all of you are proud to know that I haven’t shopped in 1 and a half months (which is killing me and making me lose spirit in putting together a great outfit so if you see me out and about nowadays, I’m just wearing jeans and a shirt). Well, haven’t shopped for myself that is. Been very well prepared with Christmas gifts and I’m almost done with it. However, I screwed up Free Philly’s one and I don’t know if my emotions are stable enough to continue it just to see if it’s worth keeping. I drew a really nice abstract sort of woman floating and decided to paint it. Brilliant idea on my part because after painting half of it, I realise she looks like a jungle woman and that the whole thing is hideous. Now what? I’m beginning to LOSE IT.

Well for art that has not failed, there’s Free Philly’s photography. And me. Hah.

You're a criminal as long as you're mine

My sis finally put up the photos of us at some obstacle course. My step mum and her colleagues had to participate in this as a team building course so we tagged along. I, unfortunately was put behind a plump lady who had a really bad fear of heights so she cried at every task and took forever to complete them which made me more anxious to get it over and done with. I don’t have a phobia with heights or anything but I do get pretty scared and wobbly when I’m at high places.

This, my friends, was the scariest task. The only thing I could hold on to was that rope which requires your body to lean forward slightly in order to reach it. Then, I had to slide my feet sideways to reach for the second rope near the end of the line. You may not be able to gage the height of the rope of which I was standing on but let me assure you, it was HIGH.
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I watched New Moon for the 2nd time last night and I think I like it better now. And I think I like Jacob even more now. I know all my male readers are disappointed at me being a ‘Twi-hard’ fan (though I refuse to read the books).

Ninja Assassin was good too. Free Philly and I watched it together after a long day at work and were pleasantly surprised. We thought it’d be some cheesy lousy B grade movie but watched it anyway for Rain. It wasn’t an outstanding movie but it wasn’t some cheesy lousy B grade movie. Rain looked...yum.

Oh yes, let me elaborate on work. Free Philly and I did the Christmas decorations for WIP. Lots of tying, cutting, and sticking involved which left me with sore thumbs; not to mention how we had to sit at the patio those 3 HOT days. It was unexpected gruelling work but we got paid RM50 per day which brings us to the most important bit: I am no longer in debt!

We did that purple chandelier and the 'Wigwam Tree' which looks a lot better with the lights on.

Mentioning about work would not be complete without mentioning the Indian man in his mid 30s who couldn’t stop talking about himself during his date. I happened to be decorating the ‘Wigwam Tree’ situated opposite where he was seated (at the bar). He and his Indian date were very well dressed except that when she sat down, she took off her sunglasses while he kept his aviators on- like an insecure rempit. Anyway, I would run to Free Philly at another tree almost after every sentence that man made cuz I couldn’t hold in the laughter to myself. The conversation went on like this:

Indian man with aviators permanently attached to his face: I’m a loyal kind of guy. Cheating is not my style but it doesn’t mean that I don’t think sex is important.
Well dressed date with voice that can never be heard: *cannot hear reply*
Indian man with aviators permanently attached to his face: That f**ker thought he could *muffled words* so I punched him in the face. (I ran to Free Philly)
(when I returned...) lawyers are always like that but I really do like women and I’d treat them well...
Okay, you get the drift. He just kept praising himself. I hate cocky people. Although I found him hilarious, his date must’ve been suffocating in her seat. Unless she’s one of those loser girls who falls for the obvious sugar coating and exaggerating.

Let’s get back to real people. Me. Haha.
Free Philly and I headed to The Daily Grind for an early dinner after our last day at work. The food there was pretty good.

I noticed that while I give a nice big smile for cameras, Free Philly does a pretty boy smile which sometimes looks forceful hence making it seem like he's uncomfortable in photos with me. So, I make him give a nice big grin for the camera and he realises that he doesn't know how to do =D that. I tried making him laugh then snapping a photo but he ended up crying.

So, here's our pretty boy smiles which sometimes look forceful hence making it seem like we're uncomfortable being in photos.

The Ting Tings gotta watch out...

They know my name. I had a little groupie moment by myself just now when I saw this:

Cuban Cigar Crisis: Elle thinks we sound like the Kooks!

Hee.

...and then it all turned orange.

Last week, the naughty boy in my art class, Hao Xeang accidentally punched my bum when he meant to air punch Johan. This week, they went on some Mary Poppins emo thing. Johan (6 years old) asked if I’d still be his teacher when he’s in form4 or 5. I laughed and said he’ll find another art teacher and he replied worriedly, “but... I don’t know.” Then Hao Xeang (7 years old) asked if I’d teach him how to draw a real dragon- not the cartoon one I taught them- when he’s 11. Last but not least, Johan asked if he could come to my house to learn to draw like me. Haha! So cute. I’m touched.

Random occurrence yesterday: the gang minus Bee who had to stay home to study, went over to Aaron’s for a movie sesh. I watched Up for the first time and it was really good. I laughed so much, cried a bit too much, and will re-enact scenes to random people on purpose. After that was The Devil Wears Prada again. On the couch, Aaron put his ear to my forehead and said “I can hear your mind”.

Random occurrence the other day: Free Philly texts me saying he saw Karven in Amcorp Mall alone with a guy. I asked him to describe the guy. He replied “side parting fringe, skinny, the rest...call me again”. I asked her who she was with yesterday, and it was her brother.-.-

26 November, Zanardy’s 18th. A couple of us had dinner with him, his friends and relatives.

It was really pleasant and he got awesome gifts. The darts are from Phil, Wernie, Peanut and I. One of the more popular gifts was the New Moon poster which we made jokes about half the night. His guests all got a goody bag and one of the goodies inside was a Rubik’s cube key chain. I’ve been obsessed!

Just something really simple that I painted with water colour. I will update my Coroflot very soon.

I recently downloaded Velvet Goldmine and scanned through the movie. It looked really interesting. I was excited to watch it. It mysteriously disappeared from my laptop night before last. What. The. Hell. I’m. Pissed/confused.



I’ve finally watched 500 Days of Summer. I loved it; the colours, the costumes, the actors (love love love Zooey Deschanel. Loved her since she acted as Kit in Failure to Launch.), the little animations in between... But it was scary in a way that I was so much like Summer but I’m becoming a lot like Tom. I wish I were more easygoing and less tense and organised about stuff. Now I wonder if not planning IS planning. Okay so now tell me I’m a sucker for movies and heavy thinking.


Okay that was blah blah blah. Also, I’ve watched Stranger than Fiction. Mum recommended it a long time ago but for some reason I never took the initiative to watch it till Wernie recommended it and till Free Philly pushed the disc into his laptop forcing me to watch it. I’m really glad I did. It’s an amazing story, very unique and well scripted. It’s not a movie for those who only appreciate viewing women in skimpy outfits. This is intelligent and mildly humorous. =) MUST WATCH.


Karven sent me Jeux D’enfants which Free Philly and I watched together while drinking Shiraz wine with apples and Gouda (is it pronounced good ah?) cheese. The food consumption bit was the best part of the night. The movie was funny at some parts but we found it really hard to go ‘aww’ at the sweet scenes and have our hearts thump at the romantic and exciting scenes because the stuff they did were just a bit annoying. It’s a light movie that you and your friends can watch together but other than La Vie en Rose being stuck in my head for the rest of the night, the movie didn’t leave much of an impression.

Jennifer’s Body after Wernie’s birthday lunch cooked by Peanut with the help of Mark. The movie was so funny. The story is kind of typical but I was really surprised by how Megan Fox pulled off her role so well; probably because she is pretty much like Jennifer in real life anyway. Nonetheless, Diablo Cody did it again. I love her, I love her movies, and I’m glad I watched it. Definitely a movie to catch with your girlfriends for plenty of giggles and I guess some guys would enjoy it too for Megan’s sake.

I found this pic on Peanut’s blog. She even put up the video of us wrestling on Youtube haha.
 I teased Free Philly or something like that, then he carried me and swung me from side to side it felt as though I almost got lost in some other dimension. So, I attacked him with my nails and we wrestled. We’re not usually this childish, I promise. But he started it! Lol.

Apparently he's saying "car!" here haha. ...I mean shouting "car!"

Bak Kut Teh after and I had a pot of pig stomach and a pot of 3 layer pork with rice. Shisha after. Happiness! Phil looks HILARIOUS here. I think of an aunty trying to look younger when I look at him here. 

I shall end this with BAK KUT TEH. Merry Tummy Growling.

Laughing out loud we brave the role of black sheep

It’s about time I blogged about my trip to Terengganu for the first time with my college friends. We stayed at the Awana, Kijal apartments next to the hotel and resort. And this is as much as I remember from it: *some incidents will not be revealed as it totally embarrasses people. Hah people.

1. We spent a very unhealthy amount of time on card games.
2. Food was good throughout the trip.This was taken at a really nice and artsy, old restaurant nearby. I think it was called One Thistle Art something or something like that.This was taken before some pretty good chinese food nearby too. Buttered prawns, yum!
3. Evidence keeps taunting me with how wheels don't like me and yet I persist. PhiloPillow tried teaching me to ride the bicycle but I was pretty useless. I did manage to make it to 2 peddles though. Khoo, Mark, and Peanut rented their own bicycles to buy groceries. Since I can't bloody cycle, I had to sit on the metal bars behind Phil's bicycle which led to some very torturous moments while trying to take a rest on a chair later that day. He kept swerving till I almost fell off twice so I decided to run, as you can see.In the end, Khoo cycled me to the market and back and I just want to say that she's one of the most athletic girls I know.
4. There was a lounge area in the hotel so we hung out there one night and the nice local band there let us use the stage. They didn't have many songs that we knew of but Peanut, Wernie, Khoo and Jasmine took the stage by pairs. I played pool too which was very random of me since I suck at it.I had caught Phil doing something disgusting/embarrassing and kept laughing and teasing him till he did that.
5. Twister, is one of the most fun games to play with a group of friends. Wernie kept suggesting that we put oil on the mat to spice up the game. But we didn't hah.Me, buttwiched. Guess who's butt, (butt butt). Butt again, (gain gain). Strangers' butt, (butt butt). Tell a friend. -haha I couldn't help it.Khoo makes the best teammate in games. We ended up having to versus each other in the last round and the positions I got were so tough that my face was directly at her jingo. Hence, the picture.
6. We also played Charades at night like there was no tomorrow. I was in the winning team all the times we played brag brag brag, but there aren't any pictures of us playing that cuz we were all involved and heavily competitive haha.
7. Remember the game from Inglorious Basterds?Guessing the name on our foreheads.
8. Free Philly was asleep during this game but Wernie introduced it to us and we were not allowed to back out. I had to sing Barney's I love you song while doing the crip walk and moon walk. I tried to. But I looked like I was just flapping my arms and legs here and there. The video's on Facebook meh.
9. Then, my favourite bit: the beach. The red flag was raised so we were only allowed to stand by the shore but that was good enough. The waves crashed all the way up to our knees and as the sea pulled back its waters we felt as though the sand moved us further away. We were so fascinated by that effect. Then it was Volleyball and Dodgeball on the sand.
10. Last but not least, it was a trip not only full of fun and revelation, but full of Twilight madness. Wernie kept imitating Edward Cullen's scene in New Moon where his eyebrows are close together creating a crease in his forehead and he says so seriously "this is the last time you'll ever see me again".

ps. I prefer Twilight but the anticipation of watching New Moon just made watching it for real, pretty exciting. Of course, the group of us laughed like crazy at the breakup scene thanks to Wernie's constant hilarious reenaction while the rest of the people in the cinema were choking up.

One hell of a trip. Xoxo.

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake while I'm asleep

I guess it’s about time I stopped procrastinating and just update my blog.

Life has been really good lately. Lots of outings but still plenty of time to sleep. I wake up in the noon nowadays and just whip up something to eat and take my own time getting ready to go out. This is a good life. I haven't really finished doing everything I've planned to do but I hope I'll be more productive in January when Froglegs is in another state for that whole month boo hoo. I'm also expecting my modelling job to begin then *cross fingers* and I'll most likely be continuing with several jobs in that company. Money, here I come. I actually love working and being busy. Makes me feel useful.

Bee, Karven, Esther, and I can’t go out with other people when we haven’t seen each other in a while. We become so hyper about updating each other that we pretty much ignore everything/everyone else. Poor Navin had to sit quietly (which never happens) at our table. Raja joined later on so that was better. We had dinner and shisha at Hartamas Square; I don’t know why we even go there for dinner cuz they serve kids’ meal portions.

And we all just slowly disappear.

I’m really pathetic now. I only have RM8 in my wallet, I owe Froglegs like RM20 I think, owe my mum RM50, and my sister RM40. You’re probably wondering where all my pay went to. Most of it is in the bank which I’ve promised never to withdraw from, some I spent on accessories and clothes which I probably shouldn’t have but did, a lot on my constant going out, a lot on the Terengganu trip, and a lot on Wernie’s present which he didn’t like. So here I am now, stuck at home because I can’t even pay for a taxi to the Bangsar LRT to head to Amcorp Mall to SHOP for books and Christmas presents.

This is a pretty lousy update but there's more coming your way! Brace yourselves.